{"id":9296,"date":"2014-12-01T01:32:09","date_gmt":"2014-12-01T06:32:09","guid":{"rendered":"\/nashvillereview\/?p=9296"},"modified":"2015-03-25T19:39:42","modified_gmt":"2015-03-26T01:39:42","slug":"meg-wade-field-notes-an-alchemy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/archives\/9296","title":{"rendered":"Field Notes: An Alchemy"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>1.<\/p>\n<p>I called you from the truck stop.<br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:225px\">I planned to sleep there<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:325px\">all night.<\/span> \t\t\t\t\t   <\/p>\n<p>The attendant mumbled something over<br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:110px\">the loud-speaker about how unattended baggage<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:45px\">may be suspect, but I was busy talking to you, so I wasn\u2019t<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:325px\">paying attention. <\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:45px\">I was too concerned about the caution<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:125px\">tape surrounding the entrance.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:200px\"> Why must relief need a warning?<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span>\t\t\t\t                     <\/p>\n<p>I only pulled the car over to unclench my hands in the first place.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p>2.<\/p>\n<p>You once told me I felt pain so deeply you needed<br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:240px\">to build a bridge over it, wide<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:135px\">enough for us both to stand on\u2014<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:180px\">You bought green muck boots.<\/span>\t\t\t<\/p>\n<p>You became a carpenter. \t\t<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:100px\">You told me, \u201cyou have to be tough with fruit<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:275px\">trees, don\u2019t let them out stay <\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:345px\">their welcome.\u201d<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span>\t\t\t<\/p>\n<p>I uprooted everything.  <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:275px\">No more peaches.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p>3.\t<\/p>\n<p>Change cannot hinge on the accordion of weather.\t<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:230px\">The rain against the rhododendron<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:140px\">tunnels makes the forest roar and seem impossible<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:380px\">to leave.<\/span> <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:35px\">Dead bees tangled in my hair means July is almost over.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p>You haul the garbage bags full<br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:140px\">to the side of the road and we continue<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:40px\">to do terrible things to each other.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:260px\">How did you see this ending?<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p>We flip the switch.&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;The light goes off.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:90px\">Surely, even the sea forgets its wreckage.<\/span>   \t\t<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p>4.<\/p>\n<p>Night flooded and I couldn\u2019t find the bridge<br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:190px\">anymore (was there a bridge).<\/span> <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:90px\">The lazy capo of the moon, drunk and forgetting\u2014darkness<\/span><br \/>\ndoesn\u2019t destroy; it only confuses.          \t\t<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:40px\">I thought I saw you in the fog, but it was only a stranger<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:260px\">standing beside a fence.\t<\/span> \t <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:175px\">Ambushes of shadows like evening medications.<\/span> \t<\/p>\n<p>My clumsy hands no longer pointing to the moon, but at the pink ribbon<br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:335px\">blood makes<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:220px\">when it mixes with water and circles<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:365px\">the drain. <\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:175px\">Tell me, where is the bridge\u2014<\/span> <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><br \/>\nIf this is really what I think this is, then I cannot<br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:260px\">screw this up.\t<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p>5.<\/p>\n<p>I climbed into the car.<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:135px\">Spread<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:135px\">the Atlas across the dashboard.<\/span>              \t\t<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:240px\">Look at how much space I\u2019ll live<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:377px\">without you.<\/span> \t<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p>6.<\/p>\n<p>I unbraided<br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:45px\">my long hair in the rearview, every exit sign<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:135px\">a vertebra along the highway\u2019s back;<\/span> <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:280px\">possibility without the bruises.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:45px\">Sweetheart, I\u2019m ready to confess tomorrow isn\u2019t coming for us.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:5px\">I pulled the car over,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:225px\">whispered your name<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:90px\">into a shoebox, and abandoned it in the river<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:340px\">where we surrender<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"margin-left:180px\">the things we long for most.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p>The empty passenger seat is real and it no longer depends on you.<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:230px\">I\u2019ve mistaken shadows for churches.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"margin-left:60px\">I can build a whole world out of lack.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______________<\/span><\/p>\n<h6><a href=\"\/nashvillereview\/archives\/8941\">Meg Wade<\/a><\/h6>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>1. I called you from the truck stop. I planned to sleep there all night. 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