{"id":14770,"date":"2018-08-01T00:02:35","date_gmt":"2018-08-01T05:02:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/?p=14770"},"modified":"2018-08-01T09:14:44","modified_gmt":"2018-08-01T14:14:44","slug":"necrophilia-or-why-is-man-so-unafraid-to-tell-me-all-the-ways-he-fantasizes-about-my-transformation-from-faggot-to-corpse","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/archives\/14770","title":{"rendered":"NECROPHILIA, or WHY IS MAN SO UNAFRAID TO TELL ME ALL THE WAYS HE FANTASIZES ABOUT MY TRANSFORMATION FROM FAGGOT TO CORPSE?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em>quick, to the closet<\/em><\/p>\n<p>he whispers \/ frantic \/ eager for me \/ to be unseen. \/ we both know<br \/>\nfemme is a thing \/ never to be \/ discovered \/ to survive<br \/>\nthis world. \/ his eyes widen \/ his pleading eclipsed \/ by morbid curiosity.<br \/>\nwhat better pleasure \/ is there \/ than to be \/ dressed in death?<\/p>\n<p>&amp;<\/p>\n<p><em>you\u2019re so brave for being yourself<\/em><\/p>\n<p>his words erect \/ a colosseum \/ a crown of beating \/ hearts<br \/>\natop his head. \/ he tells me \/ i make him \/ feel so alive<br \/>\nlike standing near a hospital \/ or a slaughterhouse. \/ what<br \/>\nwill he be doing \/ when i take \/ my last \/ breath?<\/p>\n<p>&amp;<\/p>\n<p><em>i\u2019m fine with the gays<\/em><\/p>\n<p>as long as we don\u2019t \/ . \/ how did i become \/ accustomed to suffocation? \/ i\u2019ve seen<br \/>\nhis dream before \/ a sea of faceless queers \/ reaching \/ from beneath \/ his feet.<br \/>\nhe never knew power \/ could be so erotic. \/ he wants me \/ to take him<br \/>\nto Pride. \/ we can avoid \/ the fags \/ spend all our time \/ at the Nike tent.<\/p>\n<p>&amp;<\/p>\n<p><em>cool, unlike those other queers<\/em><\/p>\n<p>i\u2019m always expected \/ to swallow \/ insults. \/ like when he says \/ i can move<br \/>\nalmost like Man. \/ how my body \/ is a pride parade \/ the fight that swayed<br \/>\nin my elder\u2019s hips \/ no more\/ than a fading memory \/ the faggot in me \/ tamed<br \/>\nhopefully beat \/ to death. \/ he pauses \/ satisfied \/ while my throat \/ fills with emptiness.<\/p>\n<p>&amp;<\/p>\n<p><em>i\u2019m not usually attracted to people like you<\/em><\/p>\n<p>he says \/ as he watches me \/ dance. \/ is there anything \/ more intimate<br \/>\nthan sharing \/ insecurity? \/ he wants me \/ to watch it \/ consume us all<br \/>\neach flame \/ gasping \/ before we\u2019re forgotten. \/ i\u2019ve seen that face before<br \/>\nflesh tearing into smile. \/ is he picturing me \/ naked \/ or dead \/ or both?<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<h6><a href=\"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/archives\/14720\">Kai River Blevins<\/a><\/h6>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>quick, to the closet he whispers \/ frantic \/ eager for me \/ to be unseen. \/ we both know femme is a thing \/ never to be \/ discovered \/ to survive this world. \/ his eyes widen \/ his pleading eclipsed \/ by morbid curiosity. what better pleasure \/ is there \/ than [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1704,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"spay_email":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false},"categories":[57],"tags":[25],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6Jypy-3Qe","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14770"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1704"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=14770"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14770\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14772,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14770\/revisions\/14772"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=14770"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=14770"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=14770"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}