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Connect openings on left to any (or multiple) statements on right.<\/em><\/strong><\/td>\n| \u00a0<\/strong><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n | <\/p>\n | <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n In my defense…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n Can it be…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n It\u2019s impossible that…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n I remain certain…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n Many times I want to forget…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n My relentless need to remember…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n I\u2019m embarrassed…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n I must understand…<\/p>\n <\/td>\n <\/p>\n | …she asked for my help to move into her first college dorm, and after three hours of sweating together, she disappeared. My palms scratched rough and red from carrying concrete cinder blocks (to elevate her bed), I set the last one down to grab the handle on the dorm\u2019s massive door, and nothing happened. I was locked out and she was gone. To an important meeting<\/em>, she said through the phone (days later) and after I had flown 1,000 miles home without hearing goodbye.<\/em><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n …she was married, lived twenty minutes away, loved me. Yet, in the middle of the night when I needed a ride to Emergency (pain bending me in two), it never occurred to me to phone her.<\/p>\n <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n …I answered my phone and was shocked. She rarely called, and I heard something about her boyfriend through her sobs. I\u2019m ambushed\u2014Why now? What makes me worthy of her reaching out to me now?<\/em> I\u2019m instantly uneasy I\u2019ll say the wrong thing. Do other mothers let their daughters dictate their relationships, afraid if they screw up, they won\u2019t get to hear their daughters\u2019 voices at all?<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n …at nine my silent girl didn\u2019t know how to express herself about the divorce. But I knew the school psychologist, and he consented to invite her for a chat. Such relief.<\/p>\n \u201cIt\u2019s a hardship for her to share how she feels about it. She\u2019s a quiet, private girl. My advice? Don\u2019t force this. Don\u2019t insist she \u2018talk to someone.\u2019\u201d So, we suffered separately and in silence.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n …on her wedding day, warm sand stroked naked feet, waves hushed admirers as her white, satin dress and smile competed with the shiny, tropical sun. Minutes before\u2014final touches. A spray of pink orchids clipped to her blonde hair pulled back into a long braid draping her bare shoulder, tanned and smooth. Then, my arms stretched for a last-ever, single-daughter hug. And she stiffened.<\/p>\n <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n …she (we) had a new life. As stepdaughter, she scraped against younger stepsiblings. Collided. Stepsiblings competing, or hating, or clinging, longing to pluck her teenage potency. And she smoked dope and shoplifted and ditched school and forged my signature.<\/p>\n <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n …she had her own daughter. I propped my shopworn mirror opposite the past, buffed past failures down to tiny imperfections. Then her daughter, my granddaughter, with gallant arms outstretched, swaggered across the carpet, opposite the mirror, and she hugged my knees to her toddler-chest. The sheen new, now the reflection shown clear, my daughter\u2019s image absent.<\/p>\n <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n …the pediatrician\u2019s assistant administered my little girl\u2019s first eye test, the lettered chart hanging on a wall, pretty fish swimming in a tank nearby.<\/p>\n \u201cStand right there, honey. Hold this over one eye and read the smallest letters you see on the chart.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cE.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWhat other letters do you see?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cE.\u201d She tried the stick over the other eye. \u201cE.\u201d Confusion, embarrassment\u2014both mine.<\/p>\n \u201cSweetie, is it difficult to see the board at school?\u201d<\/p>\n My shy girl, \u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cHave you told your mom?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n I was incredulous\u2014\u201cWhen did you tell me that?<\/em>\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cRemember? I said I couldn\u2019t see the board, and you said ask for a different seat.\u201d<\/p>\n Right. \u201cI thought you meant someone was blocking your view.\u201d<\/p>\n Obviously, she had terrible vision. Obviously, I didn\u2019t see it.<\/p>\n <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n …she was nine or ten. Both of us raw in private ways since our move from her father. In our small apartment we knocked into each other, our fragility vulnerable to the slightest stumble. We fought, and the upset sent me to lie on my bed. Then, she was gone. I scoured the grounds. Combed nearby streets in the car. Panic rose in my throat. I drove home and phoned her friends. She might come back; I should wait here. <\/em>Suddenly, she stood in the open doorway, tears streaming off her chin. Her eyes lit with anger, her voice burst with her horror of my betrayal.<\/p>\n |