{"id":13795,"date":"2017-07-22T15:45:48","date_gmt":"2017-07-22T20:45:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/?p=13795"},"modified":"2017-07-31T23:05:55","modified_gmt":"2017-08-01T04:05:55","slug":"i-desperately-want-to-be-a-good-person","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/archives\/13795","title":{"rendered":"I Want Desperately To Be A Good Person"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019ve been afforded too few opportunities<\/p>\n<p>to prove I\u2019m merciful. Carrying<\/p>\n<p>carrot peels &amp; broken arm-<\/p>\n<p>fuls of eggshell to the compost heap,<\/p>\n<p>albumen\u2019s dregs iridescent in the glowering<\/p>\n<p>sun, I call the millipedes that graze<\/p>\n<p>their estuary of decay for dinner, <em>rise<\/em>,<\/p>\n<p><em>eat<\/em>. So logical, their little bodies,<\/p>\n<p>concatenated &amp; sable. The human head<\/p>\n<p>keeps seeing twenty seconds after<\/p>\n<p>being guillotined. I wonder if the basket<\/p>\n<p>catching heads at executions ever gets reused,<\/p>\n<p>holds folded towels in the guest bathroom<\/p>\n<p>or stacks of canned sardines in the \u00e9picerie.<\/p>\n<p>Fish don\u2019t feel pain like we do, so<\/p>\n<p>my friend scales &amp; filets the pile of bluegill<\/p>\n<p>in his truckbed while they\u2019re still<\/p>\n<p>mouthing their word for <em>water<\/em>. I watch<\/p>\n<p>the knife divide the body like a loaf<\/p>\n<p>splits into slices, so that everyone can eat.<\/p>\n<p>Every time I smear my toast\u2019s stoic face<\/p>\n<p>with butter, I\u2019m holding a blade<\/p>\n<p>whose ancestors demanded sacrifices:<\/p>\n<p>blood, skin to be woven, guts to be wound<\/p>\n<p>across the gape of a lute. Justice<\/p>\n<p>suggests I should subtract the plastic<\/p>\n<p>bag\u2019s weight when I place my haricots verts<\/p>\n<p>on the grocer\u2019s scale, but I pay anyway,<\/p>\n<p>&amp; take the bag home, where I use it<\/p>\n<p>to pick dog shit off the lawn. Most days<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m liable to waste hours watching videos<\/p>\n<p>of animals being freed from barbed wire.<\/p>\n<p>Poor possum, spitting like a grease fire, who<\/p>\n<p>could blame you, turning back to bite<\/p>\n<p>the hand that pulled you loose? The fence<\/p>\n<p>did just what we meant it to do.<\/p>\n<h6><a href=\"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/archives\/13891\">JOSH MYERS<\/a><\/p>\n<h6><\/h6>\n<\/h6>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019ve been afforded too few opportunities to prove I\u2019m merciful. Carrying carrot peels &amp; broken arm- fuls of eggshell to the compost heap, albumen\u2019s dregs iridescent in the glowering sun, I call the millipedes that graze their estuary of decay for dinner, rise, eat. So logical, their little bodies, concatenated &amp; sable. The human head [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1425,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"spay_email":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false},"categories":[53],"tags":[25],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6Jypy-3Av","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13795"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1425"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=13795"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13795\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13979,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13795\/revisions\/13979"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=13795"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=13795"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=13795"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}