{"id":13224,"date":"2016-12-15T00:01:16","date_gmt":"2016-12-15T06:01:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/?p=13224"},"modified":"2016-12-12T16:33:02","modified_gmt":"2016-12-12T22:33:02","slug":"beneficence","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/archives\/13224","title":{"rendered":"Beneficence"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">If I want them dead<br \/>\nI don\u2019t mean the kind of dead<br \/>\nmy momma will be<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">which I prepare to swear<br \/>\nis like, after standing<br \/>\nin a night so calm<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">it cuts the line of nights before<br \/>\nand after it in two<br \/>\nlike Christ\u2019s birth<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">is said to\u2014a clear spring evening,<br \/>\na field bristling<br \/>\nwith crickets, long grass,<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">and lightning bugs\u2014<br \/>\nhanding such a night<br \/>\nto the world\u2019s other hemisphere.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">I suppose I don\u2019t<br \/>\nwish death on them. I don\u2019t wish them<br \/>\non anyone<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">but themselves. One day<br \/>\nI\u2019ll have to come to terms<br \/>\nfor who and what it is<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">I mean by <em>them<\/em><br \/>\nand risk having my mind changed<br \/>\nabout them, as I have<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">risked being just as reductive as they<br \/>\nhave become <em>they<\/em><br \/>\nby being.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">I expect that<br \/>\non such a day when my momma is dead<br \/>\nI will want<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">to be able to stand<br \/>\nup beneath whatever sky<br \/>\nis left to me<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">and offer kindness<br \/>\neven to them and,<br \/>\nin unfolding both my hands<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">to offer this\u2014<br \/>\nside-by-side as if to let fly<br \/>\nsome fragile-winged thing\u2014<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">experience my two hands<br \/>\nmended into a single tenderness,<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">meridianless,<br \/>\nand all the lightning bugs<br \/>\ncontinuing to be,<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">then not be, then be elsewhere<br \/>\ngreenly in the black night.<br \/>\nI suppose yes<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 90px\">yes I\u2019ll want to be this way.<\/p>\n<h6><a href=\"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/archives\/13165\">Justin Phillip Reed<\/a><\/h6>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>If I want them dead I don\u2019t mean the kind of dead my momma will be which I prepare to swear is like, after standing in a night so calm it cuts the line of nights before and after it in two like Christ\u2019s birth is said to\u2014a clear spring evening, a field bristling with [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":647,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"spay_email":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false},"categories":[50],"tags":[25],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6Jypy-3ri","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13224"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/647"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=13224"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13224\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13386,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13224\/revisions\/13386"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=13224"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=13224"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=13224"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}