{"id":13215,"date":"2016-12-15T00:01:00","date_gmt":"2016-12-15T06:01:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/?p=13215"},"modified":"2016-12-11T11:06:11","modified_gmt":"2016-12-11T17:06:11","slug":"the-doctor-asks-me-when-the-pain-began","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/archives\/13215","title":{"rendered":"The Doctor Asks Me When the Pain Began"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Three days after my birthday<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______<\/span>while I sat in a theater and watched <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">______________<\/span>a movie without sound.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_____________________<\/span>The walk alone in the snow. <\/p>\n<p>The morning I fainted<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______<\/span>in the bathroom, the toilet lid <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">______________<\/span>cracking against my neck.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_____________________<\/span>Standing on the evening train <\/p>\n<p>from London, rain dripping<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______<\/span>off bicycles in the aisle. Eighteen, <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">______________<\/span>drinking vodka on the front lawn.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_____________________<\/span>Waking from surgery <\/p>\n<p>in the wrong country.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______<\/span>The day at the beach when we drew <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">______________<\/span>caskets in the sand<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_____________________<\/span>and buried the empty eggs. <\/p>\n<p>Twenty-three weeks.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______<\/span>Swallowing six pills each day. <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">______________<\/span>Slipping on ice.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_____________________<\/span>The moment I felt the baby <\/p>\n<p>move while eating breakfast at the airport.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______<\/span>The first time my eardrum burst on a flight.  <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">______________<\/span>Each goodbye. Each kettle<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_____________________<\/span>scorched on the stove. <\/p>\n<p>The idea of her. The idea<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______<\/span>of not her. <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">______________<\/span>Ten days after the blood work.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_____________________<\/span>One week after the biopsy. <\/p>\n<p>Swallowing the stitches.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______<\/span>The argument across the bridge, mouth <\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #ffffff\">______________<\/span>of a fish brushing the water.<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_____________________<\/span>Forty-three hours awake. <\/p>\n<p>Heat wave in Berlin, the baby<br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #ffffff\">_______<\/span>just an idea circling the nest.  <\/p>\n<h6><a href=\"https:\/\/wp0.vanderbilt.edu\/nashvillereview\/archives\/13165\">Kerri French<\/a><\/h6>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Three days after my birthday _______while I sat in a theater and watched ______________a movie without sound. _____________________The walk alone in the snow. 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